Happy life, happy wife is a bunch of crap if you ask me.
And maybe you didn’t ask, in which case, carry on with your life and skip the blog. No hard feelings. :-)
A relationship is a combination of two people. It’s “our” life together. Not one person who dictates, controls and manipulates another in a vain attempt to make her/himself happy.
If it’s truly “our” relationship, than why is only half of the couple honored as a person? Aren’t there two people with wants, needs and desires?
What makes one person’s needs more valuable than the other?
Happy life/happy wife is really saying that in “our” relationship, *I* (the wife) am the only one who matters. You shall be happy when I am happy. And when *you* (the partner) do something that makes me unhappy, is not how *I* want something done, or attempts to do things you like, *I* will make your life miserable. Because I can.
In 'our house,' I am relatively neat. My guy is not so much.
Rather than make him wrong for being messy, we've compromised.
Public/shared spaces where we have company are clean. He has his own space for his things. It looks like a garbage pile to me, but it works for him.
So I don't touch it.
It's our house, where both of who we are is honored. (And I know that there are things I do that absolutely drive him crazy; however, since I respect his needs - and not criticize or make him wrong for what he does, he respects what I need.)
I've had people ask (including my cleaning lady), 'How do you look at that all day?'
My reply is, "I don't."
Occasionally, it will catch my eye, but I am too busy working on my life, my future, my work to make that a priority. That’s where I focus my attention.
I remind myself that it's not just about me.
Here’s where it can get tricky.
We create more of where we focus. That’s the Law of Attraction.
If we focus on a mess (or that our partner didn’t take out the trash), we begin to attract more thoughts to support that. We will suddenly remember that other time he let us down and how she is always late and unreliable.
Maybe our partner is those things, but I guarantee there is much more to them than that.
There are those times they remember that we like to see the bed made, so they take the time to make it (again, it may not look the way it would if we did, but the point is in their effort to make us happy…...unless we want to focus on how we have to do everything ourselves because no one else can do it right, not even a simple task of making the bed can be done correctly. We can add that stress to our lives if we want. I just personally choose not too.).
I choose to focus on the fact that this person went against what they like to see done to do something that I like to see done. That takes thought and consideration. I appreciate that and choose to focus on all those other things that my partner does to make my life better.
Happy People/Happy Life.
It’s so much easier (and drama free) this way.
It's been a long while since I've updated and, while there has been a lot happening on my end, none of that has been visible to you.
I headed out in mid May for a two week trip to Bali, which was absolutely incredible and life changing. The earth in Bali is so sacred and so respected. It made me realize how disconnected our relationship with earth is.
Most of us probably don't even give consideration to that relationship anymore. We exist and the earth is there, occasionally getting in our way and causing annoyances. If we want to build, but there is a large rock formation underground that stops us, or we want our car to be nice and shiny but the neighbor's trees have birds that poop all over it (as examples), we are likely to be frustrated with the earth, instead of appreciating what those things actually provide.
There is no longer the connection of what the earth has actually done for us and what it gives us each and every day. We want things to be picture perfect and it's frustrating when they don't go our way. It's easier for me to see how we, in the modern world, take for granted the sacredness of the earth energy. Now this doesn't apply to everyone, and, there are enough people disconnected from that connection that it is creating chaos.
We don't consider what happens after we use a disposable wash cloth, paper towel or plastic. We throw it away and don't think of it again. Except now we are being forced to look at the damage we have caused by our convenience and carelessness.
So on this longest day of sunlight and the summer solstice, I am reflecting on this relationship with the earth and more.
Our relationship with food.
Our relationship with money.
Our relationships with people.
As I mentioned earlier, I was on an epic two week vacation in Bali through the end of May. I received some heart breaking news a few days before I was scheduled to return; a dear friend had been murdered.
I've spent the time upon returning home healing myself, recovering from travel, and processing my next steps and what it is I want to create (which is why I was radio silent to the world).
Which leads me to most valuable relationship we can have - our relationship with ourselves.
Each one of these relationships contributes to our life and life experience.
I encourage you to assess your life and all its relationships. What do you experience? Frustration? Anger? Lack? Joy? Love? Gratitude?
If our experience is not what we desire, the good news is that we can change it! We aren't doomed to go on this way forever.
Relationships take work and if we aren't seeing what we want from them, what are we actually putting into them?
The easiest way for our relationships to change is not to wait for someone else or something else to be different, so we can respond different.
The easiest way for our relationships to change is to actually be what we desire. It all begins with us.
Do onto others as you would have done onto you.
Treat others the way you want to be treated.
These are phrases I grew up hearing and they stuck with me. I did stray and have been unkind, mean and harsh with others, but it didn't make me feel very good. It never does.
So I always go back to treating others as I would like to be treated.
Does everyone else do the same? Absolutely not.
And that doesn't mean that I need to stoop to their level and react to their behavior.
I have often heard grown, middle aged adults, name calling and being disrespectful, especially if there is the safety of hiding behind a screen.
When I have asked why they feel the need to do that, the answer is usually 'they started it' or 'that's how those people always treat me.'
It takes nothing to be kind and it creates so much more peace and harmony in the world - something that most people have said they desire to see more of.
If that is the kind of world you would like to see, why not create it?
Instead of living life through reaction, be the change you want to see. Do it regardless of what everyone else is doing.
It's easy to point the finger and say, "look how respectful that group is, we can never be that way.'
But each and everyone of us is part of that collective we.
We are all somebody.
Why not be the somebody that creates the world you want to live in?
Listen to more about Judgments and Being Kind on this episode of Friday at Five.
When I was growing up, I remember the emphasis being on 'The Relationship."
Find someone. Make sure they had a good job and were a good person. Get married and have kids.
That's about the extent of what I was taught about relationships.
If we look back historically, the emphasis was on the relationship because it was a means for survival. We relied on each other for food and shelter. The goal was to reproduce: more hands meant more help providing for the family. Women were at a disadvantage in providing for a family and it was important to find someone who could help care for you.
Thankfully, times have changed. We live in a time where relationships are a choice. They are no longer a means for survival. Women are able to fully support themselves and there are an abundance of opportunities for everyone.
But while the dynamics of relationships have changed, our reasons for choosing them have not. Many of us are still taught that outdated idea of find a partner, get married, have kids.
There is little consideration given to what type of partner actually works for us. (And if you were lucky enough to be taught that, congratulations! You're one step ahead of the game!)
Are you someone that values independence and likes to travel? Find a partner who is secure enough to honor that, rather than settling for someone that expects you to be home with them all. the. time.
Do you desire a partner who is active and social? Or do you prefer someone who is more of a homebody?
Are you an empath or highly sensitive person who needs alone time to recharge? Or do you prefer having someone who is always around?
If you have never given this consideration, it's a great time to start. Even if you have been in a committed relationship for awhile, knowing what you require/desire from a relationship makes it easier to ask for and create.
For more on this, check out last week's Friday at Five.
I was upset with my guy a few weeks ago and some not nice thoughts started cropping up.
What started the upset is that I had an expectation on something and he didn't meet it. I couldn't tell you what it was at this moment (which shows how little of importance it was). It may have been that I asked him to lunch and he said no. Or I asked him to take out the trash and he forgot.
What I did notice, which was super important, is how quickly my mind started working to accumulate evidence in support of my upset. My thought was initially focused on how disappointed I was, and my monkey mind quickly spiraled into all the reasons why I was justified in my thinking. I started racking my brain for other times I was let down by him.
Most of this happened unconsciously....meaning that I wasn't even aware of what I was doing!
It wasn't until I thought of an event that happened four or five years ago that I caught myself and went, "whoa!"
Because I was focused on an upset, my monkey mind quickly gathered more thoughts and situations to perpetuate and valid that feeling of upset, even if it meant going back YEARS.
I could have stayed mad and upset. I could have vented all that evidence at my guy, criticizing him for letting me down.
And, in fact, I have done that in prior relationships. I have argued and justified how I was 'right' and my partner was 'wrong.' I shared all the evidence in favor of my 'rightness.'
What that created was me being in the habit of looking for ways he was wrong and letting me down.
I had inadvertently focused myself on the negatives of the relationship, so rather than looking at everything that was going right in the relationship (and everything he was doing 'right' to support me), I kept focusing on everything that was wrong or missing.
That didn't create the connection I wanted in my personal relationship. It destroyed it.
Once I realized what path I was going down, I switched my thinking. I started appreciating everything that my guy does do, every day, often without my asking.
I switched my focus to his good qualities - those qualities that attracted me to him in the first place. Those qualities that keep me attracted to him after all these years.
Upsets will happen in relationships.
Relationships consist of two people - two people with their own wants, needs and desires.
But we don't have to get stuck there. We don't have to focus on everything wrong or missing.
When we start focusing on what we do have and all the goodness that does exist, our relationships will be able to continue to grow.
And this focus applies to every aspect of our lives.
Did you catch last week's Friday at Five? You can listen here.
I was the girl who couldn't get a date for prom. As in, no one asked me (until a week before my senior prom and a new co-worker felt sorry for me that I was going to my prom solo. Again.)
It was during these high school years that I developed a belief that there was something fundamentally wrong with me. I had a ton of evidence to support it too. I rationalized that I must not be that bad because some guys would ask me out, just none from high school. I figured that if I didn't let those guys get too close to see that there was something wrong with me, I would be okay.
I remember a 'friend' during my senior year of high school saying to me, "What is wrong with you? You are going to lose the best thing that ever happened to you." I couldn't let that happen, so I basically went insane trying to prevent it. (Sorry, Mike) Losing my boyfriend at the time would confirm that I was defective, unlovable, and undesirable.
Thankfully, I have come a long, long way from that girl I was in high school. It took years of asking questions and breaking down the beliefs I had carefully built up over the years, but I did it.
I used to be so jealous. Of pretty girls. Smart girls. Funny girls. Rich girls. Talented girls. Basically every girl that I thought was better than me. Every girl who didn't have something fundamentally wrong with them. Every girl who had their life together.
I would criticize and cut them down to make myself feel better because I didn't want to acknowledge how much "better" they were than me.
They were the problem, not me.
It took a long time to realize that instead of cutting everyone else down that I could build myself up....because there was nothing wrong with me.
And all the fears and insecurities I had, all these other girls carried as well.
When I got that my being jealous of them was really rooting for someone else to win my guy, I was dumbfounded. Why would I root for someone else when we are happy together? Why would I root for someone else to be in a relationship with my guy, when he is the one who chose to be with me?
I am so much happier and peaceful in life, now that I am not treating everyone as a threat or competitor. I know I am the best version of me and that is enough.
For more on this subject, check out last week's Friday at Five.
I made self care a priority a priority when I was single and looking. I had a workout routine and watched what I ate; I shaved regularly; I wore make up regularly. I was following what all the marketers said we needed to do to feel sexy and attract a partner.
After I met my ex-boyfriend and we had dated for about six months, I was happy to be past the 'honeymoon' period. I felt like now that I 'had' him, I didn't have to work as hard on myself. I stopped wearing make up, unless it was a special occasion. He liked me any way. I indulged in more comfort foods, since ordering take out and watching movies was a way to spend time together, I stopped working out regularly. Why spend time doing that when I could spend time together with him? Once winter hit, I stopped shaving. No one else would see my legs and my boyfriend would like me anyway.
But as I made all these changes in my life, another change appeared in our relationship. The closeness and connection that we had at the beginning was fading. Sex was happening way less often (or not at all). Kissing stopped, other than a quick peck hello/goodbye (or goodnight). I stopped desiring his arms around me because I was afraid that any intimacy would lead to sex, which was something I wasn't interested in. I told myself I was too tired, too stressed, too much to do.
The truth was that I didn't enjoy it.
As the years went on, and we became glorified roommates, I became very unhappy. I hated life. I resented my relationship. Even though superficially it looked like most of my friend's relationship's, I craved closeness and connection. I craved being loved and being in love.
I was aware enough to know that my feeling this way had little to do with him and all to do with me. I started looking up female sexual dysfunction and focusing on finding what was wrong with me. My whole adult life, up to this point, centered around that one thought. Something is wrong with me and I need to find it, so I can fix it.
Somewhere on my journey to fix my life, I stumbled on a book, "The Power of Your Subconscious Mind." It was a mind blowing book. I had to read it several times to digest everything that was presented, and then I went to work on me.
I knew I felt better when I worked out and when I ate (or rather didn't eat) certain foods. I knew I felt sexier with smooth legs and when I wore make up. So I started adding these things back into my life and, as I started feeling better about myself, I was actually able to receive the love that had always been there.
When I wasn't feeling good about myself, it didn't matter what my partner said or did. It didn't matter if he told me he loved me 500 times. It didn't matter if he looked at me with love in his eyes, appreciating me for who I was. It didn't matter because it wasn't true for me.
I didn't believe that he could love me. I could believe he was just saying it. I didn't believe he could look at me with love in his eyes. I could believe that he was looking to pick out what was wrong with me and ask himself why he was with me. That thought resonated with my belief of myself. The others (the kind, loving ones) didn't.
How we feel and what we believe to be true about ourselves directly ties into what we will be able to receive from others. We will devote our time and focus validating those beliefs. Anything that doesn't validate them will be ignored or twisted in a such a way until it does.
So if you've lost that loving feeling, one question you could ask is, "how much do I love myself?" Or "how good do I feel about myself?"
We can only receive where we are at, so if we are desiring more, it begins with us being able to receive it.
Want to hear more? Check out Episode 6 of Friday at Five.
How many times in life do we just say yes, when we really mean no?
Maybe we don't want to hurt someone's feelings...
Maybe we think it's kinder to say yes...
Maybe we are tired and just don't have the energy to handle it right now, so we say yes....
Maybe we are a 'good person,' so of course we say yes...
Maybe we think we are doing someone a favor....
There are so many reasons and excuses we can use to justify why we say yes.
But what is the cost?
When it's easier to say yes to staying in an un-loving relationship....
When it's easier to say yes to other's needs before our own (because we are a kind, caring, good person)....
The cost is our life.
Literally, the entire time we are living here on earth and we are saying yes to someone and something else. who is saying yes to us?
Who is actually living the life we dream about?
For me saying yes comes at to great a price and there is far more power in saying no.
Saying no to what doesn't light us up.
Saying no to what doesn't bring us joy.
Saying no to people and situations that seem to bring out the worst in us (and saying yes to those who inspire us to be our best).
Watch more here on last week's Friday at Five
Death is a funny thing. Many people will avoid the topic, deny it, ignore it and flat out pretend it doesn’t exist. And then when it happens - and it will find each and every one of us - people are shocked and some will spiral further into disbelief and denial.
The focus will be on how we didn’t want death to happen, regret over things unsaid and time together not spent, frustration, anger, and sadness at not being able to do anything to change what’s happened (and bring someone back to life).
We remember the good times and forget the bad. We glorify the memory and wish that we could have had more time.
But the harsh truth is that if we had had more time, we likely wouldn’t have spent more time together. We would have probably continued on with our same routine and habits, making the daily tasks and to do’s more important.
Now if we had notice - like if we know someone is terminal with cancer, that usually changes things. We know that our time together is short and we make the time to spend together.
The reality is all of us are dying. Every single one of us is dying a little more every day. It’s just that the majority of us don’t come with an expiration date for all to see.
This month marks the one year anniversary of my sister’s sudden passing. I will never forget that day - where I was, receiving multiple phone calls from my mother, and my mother’s heart-wrenching screams as she yelled,“she’s dead!”
Those moments will forever be etched in my memory. And I know that if I had known my sister was dying on that day one year ago, I would not change a single thing. I’ve had enough experience with death to make life a priority. People and experiences take priority over tasks and to do’s.
Rather than focus on a situation that I am powerless to change, I choose to celebrate the memory of lives that were lived. I know that those who passed would not want me to stop living, simply because they did.
I have a tradition of honoring those who died with doing something they enjoyed while they were living. It makes me happy to remember the person they were and celebrate them in a way I know they would enjoy.
Life is short. Embrace the now. Take the time to play. Celebrate with those you love while they are living.
People will say that I have a blessed life, or that they are jealous of my life. This comment always makes me reflect - would people really want to trade places? I have experienced more death and loss in one year than many people experience in their entire life.
All this loss and death has helped me to shift my perspective into making the most of my time here. I don’t have time or energy to focus on the petty and the drama. I am here to live and to experience what is available on this beautiful planet.
This last year has been especially difficult, and I’ve experienced some of the highest of high’s with some of the lowest of low’s. It has been a year of change, transitions, letting go and moving on.
I invite you to share in the next phase of this journey with me. I am excited by what is being created, revealed and am so looking forward to sharing that with the world.
I recently launched a new program, Relationships Re-Imagined, using my psychic abilities to partner with what you are looking to create or change about the relationships in your own life.
Most people seeking a psychic reading were interested in knowing more about relationships - creating one, ending one, changing one - and it makes sense. We cannot go through this life without being in a relationship, in one form or another. And I know that I would not have made it through these last few years if it weren’t for the nurturing, loving support I received from the relationships in my own life.
You may click here to learn more, or if you are already thinking of this could work for your life, let’s chat!
I’ve recently launched a series on my YouTube channel called Friday at Five. Every Friday at 5:00P EST I’ll be discussing an aspect of relationships. Check out the first episode here - Why Marriage is a Relationship’s Death Sentence.
Have a topic you want to be discussed or a problem you want an outsider’s point of view on, shoot me an email and I’ll work it into the series.
I tried to fit in to this reality; I did everything I was 'supposed' to do: went to college, got a job, bought a house. And I was absolutely miserable. It was went I lost everything that I found the greatest gift. I found myself. I went back to my roots and explored all things 'hooey,' weird, and 'out there.' I embraced my psychic gifts and started using my intuition again, which allowed me to re-discover the magic and mystery that does exist in this life (when we are brave enough to embrace it).